Almost there

Only 4 sleeps til DD's 1st birthday. I am quite excited as it is going to be at Mum and Dad's and will be a much more relaxed affair.

DH found an awesome house on a small property in Beaufort!!!!! Why the excitement, he says he would be willing to move there are get a job there just for the house. OMG knock me down with a feather I must go job hunting in Ballarat.

I am so sick of scanning slides!!! I am doing it as a favour for DH's Aunt but I hope she appreciates the hours whn I eventually get this done!! I'm only half way through.

time to get super strict

OK, I have finally made peace with the fact that I have to get a whole lot stricter with the diet. I'm going to do some homework on the nitty gritty of nutrition and make a list of good foods, OK foods and foods to avoid as much as possible. I am going to have to put more effort into drinking a minimum of 2 litres of water a day, no cordial added. This will be a challenge, but I will have to force myself, I need to do it. Alcohol is officially off limits except for Sunday, DD's birthday, and I will limit it to one drink. My biggest food crime at the moment is portion size, I have to immediately cut it right down. Living with a big eater has influenced me eating much larger portions than I should. I am really hoping that these measures will start to see genuine weight loss.

Swimming was fun yesterday. DS still won't jump in the pool by himself. No worries, will keep working on that. DD was not impressed initially but she was fine after a few minutes and even enjoyed it. Next time we go I am going to swim laps while DH looks after the kids in the learner pool. I am a bad swimmer but the point is that it uses alot of energy and is low impact so it is good exercise no matter how bad my technique is.

going nowhere fast

I am finding it harder to workout on the bike. I still have the enthusiasm but my legs are tiring real easy. I must press on, I am determined that I have to start genuinely losing weight if I persist. I am still mystified why over 3 weeks of healthy eating and working out has done nothing. I appear to be losing a few hundred grams a day only to see it back on again for no reason. Frustrating.

I started the Christmas shop today. DS is sorted but all I got for DD is clothes and I feel like I am ripping her off. It's not like she will care much, being only one year old, but it's the principle. I think I'll wait and see what she gets for her birthday next week and then decide.

Taking the family swimming tomorrow. DS needs to work on a few things for his swimming lessons. DD has never been in a pool so I think tomorrow will be a good chance to get everyone involved.

Going to try to put in a big bike workout before I go to bed, if the kids will let me. I really need to. Might put on a few episodes of Dexter to keep me entertained. Love that show.

Strange

After my little slip up of eating a few naughty things on Monday, I was even more depressed to get on the scales Monday an find it reading 75.2......you can't be serious!!!! A few corn chips, some cheese and a feta and olive dip is not going to put on 2kg overnight!!!! With that I did 1 hour on the bike and resolved myself to eat as healthy as possible even though we were going to a friends house for the day. I stuck to the plan except for eating a few deep fried jalapenos that my friend had made special for me to try. Much to my relief, yesterday I was back to 73.2 so I have no idea why I weighed in heavy on Tuesday morning. Anyway, today I am 72.7, and very happy.

Have been cleaning heaps, and I'm happy with the results so far. Still plenty to do, mostly getting all the toys under control before Christmas hits and getting the pantry better organised. I've decided that I need a better system of organisation if I am to be more successful at keeping this house tidy. DS needs to have more rules about keeping his toys tidy, and I think having them seperated into plastic boxes and limiting him to having one box out at a time, which he must pack up before he can play with toys form another box, will help enormously. That will have to wait til next week as I have a few things to do taday before packing to go to Mum and Dads for the weekend....going to play golf on Sunday. Should be fun, I hope the weather behaves.

I am weak

I'm quite pissed off with myself. I am letting myself stray from the diet too easily. I ate too much naughty stuff at the inlaws tonight and I am really annoyed. If I have gained a significant amount in the morning I will be double annoyed at myself. I have already resigned myslef to getting up as early as I can to get as much workout time as I can in the morning before the kids get up. We are going to my GF's for most of the day tomorrow so I am going to have to really resist temptation and stick to the diet plan as much as possible. I am going to take a healthy salad and fresh fruit desert to avokd eating more fat and sugar than I should. I really have to get serious. And starting Wednesday, I am going to completely cut out alcohol (except for DD's birthday, have to drink a toast to my precious girl). I have to do all I can to get this weight down...I am fighting more than just baby weight, I am fighting genetics as well (thanks Nana). BTW 73.2 today.

DS had us in histerics on the way home tonight. It was raining and he said to us "Oh no, the moon is getting wet!" Then when we got home he declared.."It's wonderful in here". He is a real crack up. Who needs to pay money to see a comedy show.

lonely sundays

Sunday is not my favorite day anymore, it used to be. It used to be about family, the Sunday roast and relaxing in the afternoon. Now it's about DH going to work or going to golf if he is not working. I hate it that he rarely plans family stuff on his days off, it's all about him. I look forward to having him around for a day but in the end he just does what is good for him and I get stuck at home...again. I'm going to put an idea into his head...he can play golf every second weekend. On every other, he has to spend it with us...me and the kids, or maybe he can look after the kids while I go out and do something for myself...maybe go to a movie or do a karate class.

73.1kg today. I am getting addicted to the exercise bike, did 75 minutes today, I used to struggle to do 15. I am starting to think I am entering an (almost) mid-life exercise craze that so many of my friends have gone through...had their kids, wanting their old body back, wanting to do stuff they used to do many years ago. Don't care what the motivation is, as long as I can keep it up and reach my goals.

Still dropping

73.2kg today. Little by little.

DD pulled herself up to standing today. Little miss trouble is going to visit soon. DS is starting to say funny things....bordline cheeky really. I was having trouble explaining why it wasn't possible to do something, his reply "Just do magic!" Then after I told him off for not cleaning up his toys, he looks at me and in all seriousness says "you need to behave yourself". Wonder where he heard that.....

DH was actually a little cruel to him last night and I had to admonish him.... I was on the PC doing stuff and DS couldn't find me. He asked DH where I was and his reply was "She went mad so we shot her, she's gone" Now, a three and a half year old doesn't quite have the same ability to interperate humour that adults do. DS burst into tears and was very distressed. I had to go to him and give him big cuddles to reassure him I was still here and quite OK. I also made DH apologise for his misplaced attempt at a joke. Poor little man!!